You may well have taken advantage of mindfulness techniques to stop, pause, to become aware of what is taking place in the moment. You might have leveraged meditation as a reprieve from your emotions, thoughts and feelings. What is it that makes you act, respond, think, believe and feel in the way in which you do? What is the trigger which presses your psychological or subconscious buttons? The answer to these inquiries might be far more complicated than you initially conceived, as you view your place in the larger cosmos.
There is much more that is not seen than can be seen. Take into consideration that everything in the universe is energy. Welcome to the world of actuality and real facts. Absolutely nothing within the cosmos is by fortune or accident, all adhere to well-prescribed patterns and circulations of energy which form the basis of all matter, thoughts and our reality.